Monday, November 2, 2009

On the Pursuit of happiness


to be or not to be.
something to be desired.
spurrned onward by thoughts of regret,
knowing is love unknowing is anxiety
something
everyone,
wants no part of.
stay away from
I
you
until we meet again.




Friday, August 21, 2009

wrote this for you.



Inspiration comes in all shapes and sizes,
sending the hands of my clock winding backwards,
whether jubilant or grave,
the thought of us is awe-inspiring.
excuse my wishful thinking,
we are made perfect by design,
or you are,
i'm a product of my environment,
a place i wish you were.

Sunday, August 16, 2009

Inbox: 10:35PM August 16th 2009


"No. Look I dont like you. I dont trust you. I shouldnt be talking to you im sorry. Im not that kind of girl to lead someone on so im going to stop. Good luck."

Sunday, August 2, 2009

as time goes on


ones supposed to become more comfortable or aware of what they have become or are becoming. I cannot fathom knowing someone so well, and then a day later not knowing they exist. Unfortunately some don't see things this way.

Wednesday, July 15, 2009

You.



Know whom you are,
know what you want,
its not me your looking for,
regardless.
previous actions,
deemed as my downfall,
everything's different now,
regardless.

Monday, July 6, 2009

2:58 am


thought processes,
slowed by substances,
the task at hand is arduous,
dont rush us.
minds racing,
hearts beating,
shaking.
i cant believe this is happening,
i cant believe who im facing.
fact or fiction,
form your own opinions,
praying i have everyone,
hoping,
wishing.

Tuesday, June 23, 2009

everything declines.


Everything in general. Health, friendships. Family. Is this a fact of life; or something we can taint, alter or delete in some fashion? Each day/hour/minute I waste pining on whats going wrong or whats not happening right in my life is another period wasted. What can one do to eradicate such feelings. Self-deterioration is slow moving, and mind-altering. It wil grasp your wrist and not allow you to slither away without taking something thats so important to you, you wish you could grasp onto it and not let it go. Its too late, times up. Already gone. Or is it? Could i of done something different? Could I of not given in to such a negative mindset and sense of self pity? Or am i venting and not allowing this void to win? All questions I want answered. Now. Why waste another minute waiting for someone to answer me, why not find it oneself. What have i always been looking for? What is it? Its you. Your essence.
wasted. memories. fading.
gone.

everything declines. Meanwhile, i slow the process.
please dont...
gone