On the Pursuit of happiness

to be or not to be.

something to be desired.

spurrned onward by thoughts of regret,

knowing is love unknowing is anxiety

something

everyone,

wants no part of.

stay away from

I

you

until we meet again.

wrote this for you.

Inspiration comes in all shapes and sizes,

sending the hands of my clock winding backwards,

whether jubilant or grave,

the thought of us is awe-inspiring.

excuse my wishful thinking,

we are made perfect by design,

or you are,

i'm a product of my environment,

a place i wish you were.

Inbox: 10:35PM August 16th 2009

"No. Look I dont like you. I dont trust you. I shouldnt be talking to you im sorry. Im not that kind of girl to lead someone on so im going to stop. Good luck."

as time goes on

ones supposed to become more comfortable or aware of what they have become or are becoming. I cannot fathom knowing someone so well, and then a day later not knowing they exist. Unfortunately some don't see things this way.

What Im listening to-2

http://rapidshare.com/files/113782174/WK-PotC2.rar

You.

Know whom you are,

know what you want,

its not me your looking for,

regardless.

previous actions,

deemed as my downfall,

everything's different now,

regardless.

2:58 am

thought processes,

slowed by substances,

the task at hand is arduous,

dont rush us.

minds racing,

hearts beating,

shaking.

i cant believe this is happening,

i cant believe who im facing.

fact or fiction,

form your own opinions,

praying i have everyone,

hoping,

wishing.

What Im listening to.

http://shadyvilledjs.net/cudi

everything declines.

Everything in general. Health, friendships. Family. Is this a fact of life; or something we can taint, alter or delete in some fashion? Each day/hour/minute I waste pining on whats going wrong or whats not happening right in my life is another period wasted. What can one do to eradicate such feelings. Self-deterioration is slow moving, and mind-altering. It wil grasp your wrist and not allow you to slither away without taking something thats so important to you, you wish you could grasp onto it and not let it go. Its too late, times up. Already gone. Or is it? Could i of done something different? Could I of not given in to such a negative mindset and sense of self pity? Or am i venting and not allowing this void to win? All questions I want answered. Now. Why waste another minute waiting for someone to answer me, why not find it oneself. What have i always been looking for? What is it? Its you. Your essence.

wasted. memories. fading.

gone.

everything declines. Meanwhile, i slow the process.

please dont...

gone